Tuesday, September 23, 2008


I finally canceled the DSL today! Hooray!
Also started a gentle exercise program. Baby stepping it until I feel strong.

Past 6 days I've had a cold, and it is holding on tight. My lungs are miserable. I'm still a snot machine. It's a LOT of fun.

Had a bad day yesterday and feel like hiding out today, but I really ought to get out and get something done.

Right? Or is staying home okay?

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Wow. Just - wow.

So I just got some news, news I've been waiting for literally for months, and it's GOOD.


It means I have space and time to work on getting my head and my life together, won't be worried about every little penny (although money is still tight), and have something close to validation regarding the impact of my mental health on my day to day living.

When the dust settles and I see what this means for me, I will likely write some more about my circumstances and how I see them, personally and politically.

The one-day-at-a-time plan

There are times when thinking a week out is just too hard for me. It feels like the world is caving in on me and I can't stand it. That's when I go to my one-day-at-a-time plan, and try to stop myself from worrying about tomorrow. It is what lays right in front of me that I will deal with. Today.

This is WAY WAY harder than it looks, because nothing is one day at a time. It's all about the future, and planning, and getting things done so other things can happen.

Today. Now. This is my list of one day things:

Take shower.
Brush Teeth.
Return movie to video store.
Buy a few gallons of gas (literally, 3 or so).
Make lunch for my son and his playdate.
"watch" them while they play videogames and such.
Finish watching my current disc of "The Wire".

Things I might do, but don't have to:

Take a nap.
Put away clean clothes.
Organize dirty stuff.
Go to laundromat.
Wash dishes.
Clean dining room.

Once The Man comes home from work, I expect I'll interact with him. He's cooking dinner tonight (yay!), so I'm off the hook there. Good for us all, I say.

Monday, September 08, 2008

The night of a thousand dreams (about tea)

Actually, I think there was only one, long dream of tea, but it was enough. I'm up at least 2 hours earlier than I'd planned to be, and if it weren't for bf's need for another hour of sleep, I'd be banging around getting laundry ready and taking a shower, etc.

As it is, I've got a cup of ginger tea by my side (this fabulous Thai stuff, which is really a mixture of granulated ginger and sugar, sure to cure what ails me).

I did dream of tea, though. This after drinking two large mugs of it last night (one earl grey, one raspberry). The weather is turning cooler, and I've been fighting an odd combination of allergy/cold symptoms for a week or so.

So tea is nice.

Now it's back to The Wire, my ginger tea (I think I'll follow it up with some more earl grey), and waiting for my antihistamine drug to kick in an stop this sneezing!

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

On what Sarah Palin actually stands for...

There is much that has been said about the VP pick on the Republican side of the aisle, Alaska Governor Sarah Palin. I personally see the pick as a transparent and desperate bid to appeal to women who are on the fence about voting for Obama, as well as a ploy to change just what the election is about.

The scary thing is that Sarah Palin's nomination is roughly equivalent to Clarence Thomas' nomination to the Supreme Court. Her lack of experience and her odd political background (as well as ultra conservative stance on abortion) is obscured by the uniqueness of her as a choice.

Anyhow. We all know that her underage daughter is pregnant out of wedlock (but she'll be married, soon, which will make it ALL BETTER). But what we did not know is that Gov. Palin cut money which funded a state wide program in Alaska which helps teenage mothers get their feet on the ground.

According to the Washtington Post
... earlier this year [Palin] used her line-item veto to slash funding for a state program benefiting teen mothers in need of a place to live.

After the legislature passed a spending bill in April, Palin went through the measure reducing and eliminating funds for programs she opposed. Inking her initials on the legislation -- "SP" -- Palin reduced funding for Covenant House Alaska by more than 20 percent, cutting funds from $5 million to $3.9 million. Covenant House is a mix of programs and shelters for troubled youths, including Passage House, which is a transitional home for teenage mothers.

According to Passage House's web site, its purpose is to provide "young mothers a place to live with their babies for up to eighteen months while they gain the necessary skills and resources to change their lives" and help teen moms "become productive, successful, independent adults who create and provide a stable environment for themselves and their families."

Here's a picture of the actual bill, with Palin's initialed changes.

This kind of funding cut shows a lack of "family values", in my opinion. Not every teenage girl has the kind of family Bristol Palin has, one which will no doubt take care of her and her child for many years to come. If people want to force all women to carry unplanned/unwanted pregnancies to term, those same people are duty bound to provide funding and secular assistance to those same women, no matter what their age.

In a way I'm sick to death of reading about Palin, but in another way, I'm deer-in-the-headlights fascinated to see just how deep the depths of her story go.

This woman is so unfit to be in the position of Vice President, it's not even funny.