Writing this, I realize that Halloween, Birthday and Valentines days are holidays on which I am extremely indulgent of my children's wishes, even when I don't "feel" like it. It must be because those are my favourites? Who knows. Parents are crazy.
Bf and I were talking this past weekend (en Español: Mi novio y yo hablamos el fin de semana pasado), about how I wasn't doing my school work and somehow the concept of PRE-crastination came up. It's the period before one actually begins PRO-crastinating. Unfortunately the precrastination is well over and procrastination reigns supreme.
Last night I got home from my writers group and the poor hamster was acting all nutty, so I got her out of her cage and was struck my the DESPERATE urge to clean her cage. Turns out it was even filthier than I'd though, so it wasn't a wasted effort by any means. As I cleaned, I began wondering if I was a little manic these days. I've been sleeping less, and eating oddly*, but both of those things can be explained: I've got a lot of school work to do and end up staying up late to finish/work on it, and I haven't had much motivation to shop for food. On the other hand, I'm restless and having difficulty concentrating, which is perhaps why I have not been taking super great care of myself.
I'm not questioning myself deeply, nor doubting my sanity (I'm still clinging to that with an iron grasp), it's just that I have to stay vigilant and modify my schedule, diet, etc. in order to stay on top of mood changes and let them do as little damage as possible.
*I have been really not very hungry, and not picking out food very well. Yesterday it hit me, I wanted an apple - so I'm officially on an apple kick.
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